nobody comes here much anymore. good. i can rant then.
I HATE MYSELF ): im annoying. really
i dono the reasons i hate myself. i do. i just do. just wait for me to cry. which actually i already am. SHEESH.
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Sunday, May 31, 2009
11:13 PM
edited by MEGAN SHEN.. heh.
this was extremely random o.o
from left to right: ammie, efaye, myself, megan.
haha. more pics at: www.megan-shen.blogspot.com =)
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Thursday, May 28, 2009
5:28 AM
i still love you. so shut UP.
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Thursday, May 7, 2009
5:20 AM
why do u have to look at me with those eyes? straight into mine.. and then u give me that smile of yours that makes my spine twine gosh, i cant take it im going crazy i want to let go obviously i do but geez you've got me hanging on to you i cant let go you've got me glued to you i swear im going to blow up if i dont let go soon
its been two years you've had me locked to you will i ever let go of this die hard crush? gosh, i feel like screaming if only i could i miss you even now if though i just saw you
you and that smile that makes your eyes small it makes my heart pound harder at end or does it skip beats? i can never tell coz im too focused on you.
sigh. will you ever notice? and feel the same? but what are the chances? none i expect.
bleh. i really do feel like bombing.
be glad im still holding on.
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Tuesday, May 5, 2009
6:17 AM
written originally by megan (ahem, fox) shen. editted by myself (so she wouldn't sue me for copy print. hahaha XD)
The way I see you is so complicated, it makes me so crazy in mind, your the one who made me interested. because you were so one of a kind.
As I look into your eyes, I see nothing, but when you look at her with your eyes, she means everything.
As I see you staring, I wonder what you're thinking, I always hoped it was i, in your mind, your mind grazing but my thoughts were hazing.
i cried and lied day and night, who could help me? obviously not my might hoping you would understand my heart's side, with the thought of you as my knight.
I have dreamed a day would come, that you would love me, but would you ever love me too? you weren't so mean as to let me fall that heavily
loving you's hard but i'll continue doing so anyways coz u deserve it, u one of a kind, all my days
I end this with a tear, as you will never read this I guess, because what do you care? alot of thoughts, but me i guess.
sigh. haha.
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Wednesday, April 22, 2009
4:52 AM
i feel a long one coming on... sorry to bore ya'll..
will i ever get over this? i want to let go coz it juz hurts so much.. coz it juz hurts too much.. its hard to talk to you but not being able to say everthing i want to say.
my skin tingles at the very thought of you would u ever love me? love me too?
sitting here feeling like im going to cry but im juz holding it in.
i dont want to draw attention it'll juz carry more tension i dont want to explain i dont want to complain.
i dont want to. i juz dont want to
i want to oh yes i want to so much.
but u wouldn't understand would you? i thought not.
of all my boyfriends, of all my crushes why does this one hurt so much more? why does this one feel so much different?
i curse myself. for thinking this way i curse myself for finding out i loved you..
coz then, it felt like nothing coz then, we were so easy going coz then. coz then.
coz then i would be able to laugh along with you coz then i would be able to talk to you without feeling tension
it feels like you're perfect but is anyone perfect really? everyone has their faults but to me u feel i think ur like i thought i still do
u ARE. perfect
not seeing you for one day feels like three days
not seeing you for one day feels like three seasons
not seeing you for one day feels like three years..
get a hint. no. wait. dont
im in a whirl of emotions
as no one knows mostly everyone knows as no one thinks everyone does
im not making sense but to myself it means the world
coz it juz hurts to much... _____________________________________________________________ its the way you smile its the way you wave its the way you wink its the way you laugh its the way you sing its the way you play the guitar and drums its the way you walk its the way you talk its the way you are so modest its the way you tease its the way you joke its the way you get annoyed its the way you lag :) its the way you play its the way you run its the way you say 'lol' its the way you make me laugh its the way you make me blush its the way you're afreaid to tell me my faluts its the way you want to make sure im not offended its the way you act so cool its the way you make so many girls fall for you its the way you caught me too its the way you make my skin tingle its the way you hug me its the way you're so smart its the way you make me miss you its the way you understand me its the way you make fun of me its the way you dont want me hurt its the way you make my heart race, or was it skip a beat? maybe two? its the way you teach me
its the way you made me love you...
now you know who i really am. <3 Jess.
&! Wednesday, April 15, 2009
1:29 AM
Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving But I know I saw a light in you And as we walked we were talking I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold Hey Stephen, boy, you might have me believing I don't always have to be alone
'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you Can't help it if there's no one else Mmm, I can't help myself
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling So I got some things to say to you I've seen it all, so I thought But I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving? I think you and I should stay the same
'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you Can't help it if there's no one else Mmm, I can't help myself
They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me Why aren't you here tonight? I'm waiting alone now, so come on and come out And pull me near and shine, shine, shine
Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons Why I should be the one you choose All those other girls, well, they're beautiful But would they write a song for you?
I can't help it if you look like an angel Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you Can't help it if there's no one else Mmm, I can't help myself
If you look like an angel Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you Can't help it if there's no one else Mmm, I can't help myself
Myself Can't help myself I can't help myself
if only i could change steven to your name. but it wouldn't match. I LOVE YOU. =3